Music: If I Were A Boy - BC Jean
Day 5. The silence is deafening; something I'm struggling to get used to. But it's hard, harder than you can imagine.
Have you ever had the feeling of just doing something on an impulse without thinking of the stupid consequences that might take place after? I have. Most of the time, I'm too much of a coward to carry through with it.
Every day that comes has been nothing but a big sort of blur to me. Some days I wake up not knowing what day it is because everyday turns out to be the same. They consist of datelines, never ending practices, tiresome chores to run after, more datelines, assignments and the list just bloody goes on.
I'm starting to feel the entire strain. Some days it drives me to tears due to the immense frustration I get out of being human- my incapability to overachieve when I have to. Dammit, why do things just pile on you when you least expect them to.
Just give me a new form of escape, a momentary hiatus.
