Music: August 28th 3.30am - Automatic Loveletter
Another late night and I'm at a loss for words.
My holidays officially end today.
Along with it, many things more.
30 days.
I've learned to love and lost. Who said it's better to have done that? I wished I had never loved at all.
Tonight, I succumb to defeat. Tonight I'll learn to grasp reality in its raw state and accept it boldly. My days of reverie have ended and somehow, it's back to dealing with what I've always been familiar with.
For some odd reason, you see the bigger picture with the bitter taste of agony in your mouth. It's not the kindest way of realization but that's how things work I suppose.
Admittedly, I've lost myself through this period of so called "bliss". I got caught up in the entire thing to a point where returning back to what life is seems harder now.
There are much bigger things in life than just that. There are graver issues out there. More pressing matters I have to address than worry my mind out over this. It's about time I start addressing them one by one because they don't hold second chances for me. Once lost, is lost forever and I'm not willing to let one small immature situation ruin the plans I have for myself.
Unfortunately, experience doesn't just go away at a snap of a finger. I've committed possibly every single memorable event into memory and it will take a while before they turn insignificant. But for now, it still pains me to revisit them knowing how real they were- were they?
Perhaps, a hiatus would be good.
