I'm really tired.
8am classes with Mr. Leong who teaches History is going to be hard. I'm gonna have to summon every ounce of alertness and concentration within me to put up with his occasional mumbles and somewhat loud lectures. I guess his Chinese accent does come in handy, as a form of humor for me.
Thank God I got Dr. Adnan for Sociology. It will be so interesting, I'm actually really stoked about his classes. Believe it or not, I felt somewhat disappointed class would be canceled this Thursday! Though I have a feeling I won't be saying the same thing halfway through the semester.
I'm looking forward to spending the summer away from home and family, at least for a week. East Malaysia, with the sand, sun and hopefully, tons of fun :)
I was so hungry earlier in the evening, I actually finished the whole bowl of celery and carrot sticks. I felt really vegetably after. Oh well, at least I binged on 0 calorie snacks.
I wonder if I'm a feminist. Maybe not.
I've been thinking, and thinking, and a little bit more of thinking. And I realized I was stupid or naive enough to think that sex would actually bring about commitment, or a substantial relationship for that matter. In reality, sex is compares to nothing more than a craving, or an itch. The want only lasts so long.
I still put my phone by me when I sleep just in case you would come looking for me. It doesn't happen most of the time. I don't think I'll ever stop caring. Right now, I'm just caring less, and let nature run it's course. If you never resurface, then it must have been all just a nightmare.
I'm turning 19 but I'm trapped in this disgusting rut, where democracy almost ceases to exist. All I have is a dictator, of whom I'm supposed to have the utmost respect for on the basis of him being biologically linked to me. He demands for respect when he shows none, and he expects for maturity when he has none. I'm turning 19, but here I am being treated like a child.
I really wanted to do Philosophy today. But I can't risk my grades this semester. It'll happen eventually.