The days have been going by really quickly for me. As usual, once college resumes, everything becomes a routine. Shifting in between classes and coffee shops for meals and breaks. I see the same people every single day.
Well the 12th floor is different with all the new faces in this time. Some not new, just that I've never noticed them. The people I'm so used to seeing are scarce. Either gone, or just less around. It's different.
My schedule's relaxed, for now. I don't have any immediate assignments due, no tests just yet. Second week of classes. There's nothing much to expect, is there?
As a result of that, I have a ample time left on my hands. Thus leading me to "glam" up my room, with the addition of multicolored happy lights!
They're really just christmas lights. But the amount of difference they make once they're up there, flickering happily away-- immeasurable. I stayed up a whole half an hour just staring hypnotically at them, until I finally dozed off. I think they're special, don't you? :)Also, I've been maximizing the usage of my webcam lately. Webcam sessions with Michelle, a lot. Plus, a lot of random other people. Chun Hean today! He's finally in the land of the free. Detroit, to be specific. He looked funny with his sweater and winter clothing. Already complaining of the cold there. Aw, we miss him so much.
Webcam buddy.I laid staring at the ever changing colored lights for a considerable amount of time. When I closed my eyes, they formed dancing spots against the darkness that I saw. I felt something foreign in me-- a feeling evoked that I've never felt before. A cross between sweet calmness and calamity. I knew I was at an unease but at the same time, I was at peace.
Loss. One more person, crossed out of the list of my life. Friend. I really shouldn't be as surprised because I've been so accustomed to it. People come and go, right? But maybe, I just wanted to keep this one. I can't though, no matter how hard I try. I haven't heard from you in 1 week and the absence is just so prominent. From knowing you so well, to barely knowing where you are anymore-- I don't know anything. Stranger.
I'm always at a loss.
Loss. One more person, crossed out of the list of my life. Friend. I really shouldn't be as surprised because I've been so accustomed to it. People come and go, right? But maybe, I just wanted to keep this one. I can't though, no matter how hard I try. I haven't heard from you in 1 week and the absence is just so prominent. From knowing you so well, to barely knowing where you are anymore-- I don't know anything. Stranger.
I'm always at a loss.