It's so easy to act selfish. It's so easy to be outspoken about your wants.
Do I doubt my decision now? No, I don't. But every decision carries consequences. It's either me or them.
There was a point in time where I told myself I've had it and that it's time for me to start thinking about my own self. What I didn't realize was they were a part of me, no matter how hard I tried to scrub and peel that off me.
But today I heard the disappointment laced in their stern voices. I saw their concern behind their glares and their worries that came with their weak excuses. I don't blame them, I never had. I have been angry and disappointed but it was never at them. Only at myself.
I can't carry that image with me. I've learned to live up to expectations, primarily theirs. Is it worth compromising my goal and dreams for them?
I constantly feel like I'm disappointing the people around me. Will I never get anything right?
