It's been a while since I had a crummy day.
Well really, today sucked.
I'm angry at almost everybody and everything today. There were multiple times where I wanted out from this place.
Suddenly the pretty skies and vast prairie just didn't cut it anymore. Not when you're feeling this low inside.
There are always so many complications to everything I put myself into.
I am angry and frustrated. Because this decision will make or break the summer for us. I don't know if I'm willing to let it go just yet. It wasn't supposed to matter that much. Somewhere along the lines, it did; that much more.
One thing I know for sure is that I will miss all of it. The nights in your room, the nights at the fire, the long hours in the kitchen, the short car rides, the mornings on the computer.
I wonder why I'm always on the losing end. Another person I have to leave. It's come to a point where I don't even feel anymore. I could call you all the heinous names in the world and it won't change the state of things at all.
Giving up feels like the best option for me right now. Forget friends, let's just be strangers. I'm giving everything back today. Your sunnies, your movies, your stuffed white tiger that pretty much started things.
I sliced my finger open today. Blood just gushed out and dripped all over the chopping board. I couldn't do anything but stare at it. It was nasty and thankfully, my manager helped me patch it up.
Tried to change my air tickets but I got put on hold for too long, so I didn't change anything. DAMMIT.
It was just an awful day. And the confrantation later will be the highlight of the worst day of the season.
Addy. For the very last time.