ONE;
I wish you could have a taste of the depth of pain I feel on a daily basis. Maybe it is about revenge, maybe it is about getting even. But I want you to feel that stab of jealousy, the betrayal and the deceit. I want to hurt you, face to face. I want to see that flash of pain streak across your face. I want you to feel disappointed. I just want to break you down so badly. I just want you to crumble, and I want to see you fall. I want to see the world turn against you and I want to see you stand alone.
Maybe then, you will know, just the tip of how broken I am.
TWO;
I guess I will never know the truth of how you really felt. Everything contradicts. My intuition almost always never serves me wrong and I trust it because from you, I felt it. I can remember it and I am thankful because I had it. It's times like these that I crave your company the most. You always knew what to say and do. You always had that spark. You were magic and you knew the exact things to make my day. You were my saving grace, my comfort, my bestfriend, my light. I wish you were here.
THREE;
I'm barely breathing. It's the same scenario I find myself in. Set ridiculous expectations and struggle to achieve them. Why do I constantly feel the need to impress not others, but myself? I seem to have to prove to myself that I'm worth something more than ordinary. This is taking a toll on me but I'm not giving up, why? Because the last thing I want to be is to be dubbed a quitter.
FOUR;
I hate sweeping cigarrette buds outside the cafe. Don't you know the mall is a non-smoking area?!?!?!
FIVE;
I hate how I have to pretend to like you. Sometimes, I just don't. And omg, you already have a bf! Stop hitting on other guys!! Like getting his personal information is highly unecessary, not to mention, borderline cheating! Dammit.
SIX;
Quizzes, tests, assignments, please disappear. Like now?
SEVEN;
When will this ever end?
