PorcelainHearts

Music: Beauty in the Breakdown - The Scene Aesthetic

Escape escape escape

It's been one of the worst days of the years. I've had a couple of bad days, nagging days, restless days. But today has proven to be the worst of the lot.

You pretty much kinda learn as you go along with life that nothing is fair. We preach equality, justice and righteousness but what are they if not just polished words and ideals by some optimistic lunatic on the streets.

No, fairness does not exist. Honesty is not always the best policy and perhaps lying sometimes would've been a much better bet to start with.

I am puzzled by the nature of it all. Does doing the "right" thing just result in loss for yourself?

I am disappointed and angry. But I don't know how to channel these emotions. Should I just beat myself up for it? To be honest, I try and work so hard to the bones for the one thing I know I still have control over. Everything else I have relinquished and given up upon.

Maybe fate has in it written for me to amount to be nothing more.

Some days, I am convinced these strives will never end.

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