I wish this was all a joke.
The things I'm about to say are nothing new to many of you. In fact, they are merely recycled words, phrased and worded differently. Deconstruct the sentences only to form a new one with different terms.
They all mean the same thing really.
I wish I had the strength to stand for what I preach. I am opinionated and outspoken. Brash, sometimes. I glance narrowly at people who are cowards and tell them directly what they should do. Maybe, I act that way to conceal what I really am on the inside. I am the same as everyone else. I know no answers or solutions.
I am just as confused.
The truth is guys, that I've been through one of the worst moments in my life. It's nothing dramatic or severe, but rather, pretty much the same shit everyone goes through once in a while.
My only flaw is that while people actually walk away, I choose to stay because I hope too much. I hope too much and I care too much to walk away. I keep giving out chances, like I'm freaking Santa Claus to the person that has broken all my hopes before this.
And all I ever asked for is honestly, clarity and perhaps, closure. I can't seem to strike any of that it off my list. I am angry. I am mad. I am hurt. I am disappointed.
I gave one chance for one final answer and there was none. I just wanted one plain, direct cold response but as always, I never get what I need. If you're afraid of feeling the guilt of breaking someone, fear not, you've already did. I am as broken as ever.
I don't want to cry anymore and I don't want to hear polished words or promises anymore. If you see this, take it in, stop thinking of yourself.
Let. Me. Go.