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In her head, she sees it.
It is clear in her head. White cotton dress, warm summer night, big bright moon, by the beach. Sun kissed skin, damp hair, flushed cheek.
She holds him by his finger, and twirls underneath it. Over and over and over again, she spins until the ocean and the moon spins with her. She giggles out loud and he presses her onto himself. She can hear his heart beating in her ears.
They are alive.
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I don't have much to say. I have pretty much stopped writing about all the tiny excitements that happen on a daily basis. Every time I find something good enough to blog about, something better happens and I just don't know where to start.
I have been missing home and the people mostly. I have been missing my brother and my mom and how sometimes I wish I could just bring them here for them to share my excitement. I have been missing my bed and all the privacy I used to have. I am missing my friends and the silliness we would indulge ourselves in on a weekly basis. I have missed their comfort and their support and the way I can be just myself when I am with them.
I have missed a lot of things.
But life here has been significant. I am slowly getting into the culture and the people here. It is good and I am not complaining. Really, I am not.
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Yesterday I looked up at the blue sky and tried making patterns out of the moving clouds. I stared until I was streaming with tears.
Sometimes, you are so far away and I can't help but just remember when we shared the same sky together.
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I don't mean to be insulting and more than ever, I just want us to be...normal.
I just want to show you how vast the land stretches out here and how cold it gets at night or how big mountains are. I just want to share this part of me with you.
I still want a part of you in my life.
Can't you give me that decency?
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It's the same thing they all want. Gross satisfaction.
