Music: Silver Lining - Rilo Kiley
#1
Sometimes I hate the idea of blogging. All you ever talk about are mundane, insignificant things that plague your otherwise worthless life. What's so important in documenting the things you have done today? What's so artistic about taking pictures your own face, splashing them all over the Internet. What are you trying to prove?
Honestly, do people want to know? Do they even care? Perhaps all you ever become is another topic of pointless conversation. Wasted over iced teas and cheap cigarettes. Maybe for good laughs, or as a joke, if you're lucky.
#2
There are times where I think I am able to return to the exact same memory and the exact same feeling I had experienced before. I try too hard to put things into place and try doing things the same way but then I realize it doesn't turn out the way it was before.
I just want to feel the way I used to.
#3
All I'd ever thought about before this was running away from the life I had. I had complained and spilled so many worthless tears over something that my own mind exaggerated. Thinking back on it now, I can't help but think what if I had stuck it out and done things differently. What if I had just stop complaining for once and realize that I could get out of it instead of running away from it.
Now, I just have to live with the outcome of my own selfish decisions.
#4
Am I really the person people say I am? There is nothing to be proud about then. It's not cool, and neither is it brave. I don't want to be that.
