I kinda like this right here. This knowledge and assurance. It feels good :)
I've been awfully preoccupied during the past couple of days. I've had to design a paddle for my sorority, which is part of the entire new member process. It's very exciting but at the same time so nerve-racking because I had to work with wood and paint it, design it. It's so scary to even think about messing up because it's not like you can just erase it.
Brian offered to help me out with it. I guess he's better working with paint and wood than I am. So he did and he got a lot more excited about doing arts & craft than I was. I swear it was that glitter I bought that got him sold.
Taking a break from all the hard painting.
We got into an argument a little while after. I wouldn't call it a minute issue because it did make me really upset and that definitely changed the mood significantly. It took a while for him to calm me down and reason with me before I stopped crying and would listen to him again.
I think communication between us has never been difficult and that's what I love our relationship. I agree that I do bottle some feelings up at times but I eventually let it all out and just demand for some honesty, no matter how brutal the truth can be. I finally got to talk to him about the things that has been upsetting me and he told me his honest reasons. Admittedly, they were not easy to hear but I'm grateful that he was honest with me and I think we can try to work something out together.
Woke up to such a supportive note :)
I'm really nervous for the weeks to come. I mean, on one hand, I'm so excited to finally being able to go home after an entire year but on the other hand, I will miss all the people here. Summer has been known to...change things significantly but at this point, I think I'm just going to have to leave with some faith.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed, as I always do.