Music: Unbreakable - Westlife
I've randomly stumbled upon some of the songs I used to listen to as a little girl and the feelings that just poured out of me feels almost inexplicable.
I don't know what happened the wide-eyed 10 year old me. I was always a believer and now I find myself standing on the opposite end of the spectrum. I don't know what made me make that transition; whether if it's life or love or both but here I am and I'm not sure if I'm a coward or a realist.
I've always accepted pity and received attention from friends and the people around me like I deserve them. Reflecting upon that now, I realize how pathetic that really is.
So, if you're ever reading again, I just wanted to let you know that you got me thinking about things in the past and things in the present and lesser of things in the future, which is a good step. I wanted to say sorry for the incredible amount of selfish things I've done and also thank you for sticking with me through them sometimes.
Right now, you're my present, not my past and maybe my future. So, I'm gonna take it one step at a time and focus on the now.
And right now, I am 5 days away from seeing you after 2 and a half months.
