Music: Why Can't I - Liz Phair
She sits in the early hours of the morning, exhausted from the long day she just had. Her feet ached from the pressure of being beautiful and her skin choked under all that make up she had to put on for the world. If they could see her now and how tiny she is compared to the person she was during the day.
They told her he'd found someone else. They told her she was the life of the party and adorable in so many ways. Everybody loved her. She was an angel. A beautiful little angel that, he too, conveniently loved.
She can't help but choke back the tears that she knew was going to come. Once upon a time, she was his little angel. She made him laugh and he watched her cry. She fell asleep in his lap and he played with her hair. She laid him butterfly kisses and listened to his heart beat.
Tonight, he's laid in the arms of this new girl with a big smile and bright eyes. She is beautiful, more beautiful than she could ever be and she can't help but feel a stab of jealousy. She was once that person. She was once the girl who held that intimacy. Who held secrets as dark as the nights they shared.
But now, she's just a girl with big dreams and an empty heart. So much more alone than she has ever felt in the entire world and always staring up at the skies, wondering if there's anyone out there or up there that can even begin to comprehend the way she feels.
She sends him a message in her mind. She's not going to be afraid to admit that she still misses him and she wished that he was here but realizing that he's happier there with her, she'll be alright with that.
As long as you smile because it's so beautiful when you do.
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I'm ready to fall in love again.
With the world, with people, with friendships, with family, with life, with myself.
