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It is one of the saddest things when you're finally able to take a step back and look at the big picture.
Screw the details.
Reflecting back on everything that has happened in the past one year, it is so sad to realize that I never really believed what anyone told me about this kid. Sounds familiar huh?
I didn't want to believe that I was being used, again, by shallow boys who think with the wrong head.
But oh yes, I was. And this time, the realization came sooner although not in time to save me from the heartbreak.
If it all goes the way it has in the past, it's going to be really sad when I'll be looking at you in the eye without any feelings in them. I'm gonna apologize and feel sorry for you while you're there, trying to convince me that you've changed and that things have changed and that you'll wait. I'm gonna try to muster some form of emotion for you, for the times we've had, but I'm going to realize that I just don't love you anymore. The most I can give you is my sympathy and an apology.
You let me go, remember?
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That entire afternoon spent in your apartment.
The first time I had seen someone so vulnerable and so hurt. Was it just an act? I can't let go of how vivid it was. How helpless you had seemed and how angry you were at yourself.
What were you sad about really? The fact that you could have almost lost me that day or the fact that I found out the truth about who you were?
I should have walked out that door and never looked back because someone like you needs a taste of your medicine.
Karma's a bitch, just so you know.
