Music: May Angels Lead You In - Jimmy Eat World
I feel as if there was another time in my life where things were less demanding and less complicated. Where I lived everyday as it is and never once lived on the hope of something so trivial.
I have lost myself, and that stirs me. I have been misunderstood and I have misinterpreted. All of which, I hold no accountability for. Only stupidity perhaps. The key factor.
My mistake to believe in a greater good in everyone.
Nothing of the sort exists. We're all spawns of Satan, out there to ruin each other. The one time I decide to be optimistic about someone, I get slapped in the face with the harsh truth. We're all shallow superficial selfish beings. Immaturity at it's level best. How I got myself into actually believing it is another enigma. Like I said, I lost myself.
We like to hurt so much. Why? Delight in misery. We cling on to it's comfort, whatever comfort it may bring. How much more messed up can we get? Perhaps, you wouldn't know what to do with your life if it was bright and happy only. We have become synonymous to pain that it's almost absolute.
Still, the sun rises tomorrow. I have exactly 4 hours before daybreak.
