Music: 7 Things - Miley Cyrus
It's been forever since I last put some form of input into this web space.
I believe the word busy has been tremendously overused by yours truly but I'll say it again: I'm busy.
Busy doing what is another very good question. Despite it being a holiday, I didn't have the entire week off, unlike all the other lucky people out there. This time around, I'm the unfortunate one with only 3 days of break. I had to attend classes on Monday and Friday. How messed up is that?!
Well, that didn't stop me from traveling all the way up to Genting and going out almost every night. Contrary to what I intended to do initially- which was complete all my homework within the week -I actually wasted all my time in the form of yum cha sessions and random outings.
The entire week has been a blur. Things started rolling downhill towards the end of it and I haven't felt so stupid in my entire life. My fault partially for putting myself in that position. Suddenly, I don't feel so strong anymore and suddenly I know all it takes is a little bit of vulnerability to end up in that position.
I went against every warning I've ever had and disappointed a whole lot of people. I'm so sorry and yes, lesson learned. Once and for all.
Granted, I took a lot of beating for it. I deserved most of it anyway. I had someone knock some sense into me and showed me how immature I behaved. I felt so remorseful and he made me promise to get a better grip of myself the next time- if there's even going to be a next time.
I ended the entire week feeling probably the most confused in my entire life time. I'm left with this painful doubt and uncertainty about a certain situation. It's so hard for me to trust and I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I don't even know if I want clarity or if I just want everything to be swept under the carpet.
I don't know.
ps: Don't ask why am I listening to Miley Cyrus. Genting and Cheryl does things to people haha
