My latest obsession;
Lastfm & webcamsssss.
Seriously, I spent the whole afternoon just randomly clicking around the website and listening to lots of good tunes. Such bliss should exist eternally.
Webcams are just fun, to quote Gab who was so excited by the video calls last night. Eh, we should have it more often. It really was quite hilarious when we have random people walking in and over hearing each others' conversation. Especially your mom, Gab! She's so cute hahaha.
I did nothing but put on the finishing touches to Yeaw Khuan's farewell gift. He left today for the States.
His absence will be significant in my life; in all our lives. The whole of next semester without him! No more terrifying car rides or annoying disturbances on MSN. I won't have anyone to bother either.
Have a good time there, uncle. I know you will. I can't wait til summer comes round so we can party? And you can tell me of your stories abroad.
I loved traveling to the airport on the highway lined with nothing but plants and billboards. You'd see an airplane or two every once in a while as your destination approaches. My breath gets taken away every time I step inside an airport. It just represents so much for me. Most of all, for some sense of abandonment I suppose.
I glided my fingers along the cold steel railings lining every inch of the vast monument I stood in. The silence and emptiness, I embraced. I could count using my hands the number of people I saw. It was tranquil. The place where goodbye's are said and hello's are made, I love. As I watched him enter the forbidden area, my heart longed so much to be the next one to step through those gates.
Where no one would know of your history. Could you really abandon it? Erase whatever memory you have stored up in your head and start on a new clean slate? I don't know. My head just seems to be swirling with such an intense pandemonium at the moment, I can't stop to think this through.
I should stop dreaming. It's really taking it's on toll me already.
I'm finally beginning to feel the distance. I'm just curious of the effects it's rubbing off on me. I should be used to do this by now. Why am I not settling? Why am I not adapting? I keep asking for change. It's here but it's painful. When has it never been, eh?
I'm too lazy and afraid to sleep tonight. Sleep just to encounter figures from my world in a more vivid and dramatic way? I'd rather pass. I have 2 movies and 1 book to last me til morning.
I missed you today. Now, more than ever, I miss you. You're so young and carefree, barely tasted pain. I'm your opposite and it seems our world can never co-exist. Yet, I miss you and more so, your company.
I loved the idea of you. God, you were such a good idea. But plans can form and ultimately fail to materialize. I remember you saying how much you missed me. Do you even think of me now? It's comical, really. I laugh at myself from time to time. You're sick of my childish antics and I'm tired of your indifference. When will ever end, hm?