Weeks to come will be crazy busy.
I guess honeymoon period is over for me, which evidently sucks. God I need to my mind back on track. Sacrificing one semester for nothing is enough. I can't afford to screw up again.
So today, I finally to get myself productive. I have a ton of assignments piling up and taking the first step is always the hardest. But I did, and I'm proud!
In return, I have numerous appointments scheduled and by the look of things, I should be able to meet the dateline, with a couple of sleepless nights of course.
Yet with all this, I still have some unsettling feelings. Like, I'm constantly waiting for something, or thinking about something, or even deliberating on further actions to take. But then again, aren't we all doing the same thing?
I wish I didn't have to read so much into things. Then I wouldn't be harboring all these pointless thoughts in my head. The equation is simple. 1 + 1 = nothing. I just need time getting used to that answer.
On a much lighter note, I've managed to severe all ties with someone I used to care about. I don't know how or what I did wrong, but evidently, I'm the one to blame for this downfall. What do I do then, but to just swallow it hard and take it the way it is. I don't feel anymore. There comes a point after so many blows, you just take the coming ones without any fear or anticipation. That, my friends, is a waste.
Life goes on, though not by choice.
Today, I finally gave the guy I was with for over a year a blowjob. Right after he tells me "I don't want a girlfriend but I want you to be my best friend." FML
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