Music: Broken - Seether ft. Amy Lee
I woke up today, trying to soak in the beautiful sunshine that poured in through the windows of my house. I put on a pair of earrings to try to feel special. Contemplated some heels but it was finals week. No one was supposed to try that hard.
I stifled the pain the entire day. Could I believe it was history repeating itself? Yes. Did it make it hurt any less? No.
I say that I've had enough but I continue to hope. And to live on this precarious hope damages me from the inside out. It's not your fault. It's mine. I choose to live in this darkness and I choose to taste the bitterness with the notion that maybe this hope will be fulfilled eventually.
Hearing your confidence and assurance last night made me think that we've done it. We've pulled through and hearing you say the 2 words made me realize that it was all entirely worth it.
If it was, I would have my hands tied up in yours right now. If it was, I would've blogged differently.
But it's not.
It's just another day with the same hurt I carry around.
