I really don't know where I'm channeling all these feelings from. And I never fail to disappoint myself.
God dammit, Adelina. Can't you feel happy and contented for just once in your life?!
I'm starting to feel like I'm just a very ungrateful and unhappy person. Kinda like an elderly person who always complains about everything in their life. Too much salt, too hot, too cold, too dry, too bright. I find faults with everything I'm around. And then I wanna run away when things don't go my way.
Deep down, I'm really just an ungrateful, spiteful brat.
I just hate feeling like this. I just wish it didn't come as easily as it always does.
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I have no idea what is it about you that I absolutely cannot resist.
Maybe it's the way your lithe body curves when you're asleep or the way your lips part when you're deep in concentration. Maybe it's the way your voice sinks so low when you're talking to me and I strain so hard to catch the words you're saying. Maybe it's the nonchalance you give me when we're around people or the attention you pay when no one else is around.
What is it about you that I want so badly?
This inexplicable, unreasonable, sudden crush is taking it's toll on me.
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Oh here's the next meme by the way.
Day 06 — A photo you like
I like A LOT of photos. I'm a photo junkie really. I like the simplest captures to the most intriguing ones. It's too bad I don't take nice pictures myself. Sigh.
For reasons that I need not explain, just tell me the feeling you get when you see this picture.
I guess that's the beauty with pictures you know. To certain extents, they're like still songs. They can make you cry, make you smile, make you reminisce and even make you hurt inside. Imagery is just so powerful.
That's one of the pictures I like.
And the things I'd give to feel infinitely happy just for one moment.