I find the song above very inspirational. One thing's for sure, it's a good song to reminisce upon hahaha :)
I finally have some drive to put more than just brief statements over here. Probably because it's such a nice day and I have a sunburn and I feel like I'm cooking from the inside out.
Yes, I function well during odd circumstances.
The days have been passing by awfully fast. We've passed the first week of June, which means soon, I will be halfway through my summer here.
Honestly, this time it's been really different than the past year. Probably because I'm not working like I did last year and I don't get to meet as many people. It's been rather mellow and very chilling but fun nonetheless.
Just for the record, I have done a lot of shopping, a lot of eating, not so much the sightseeing yet or drinking yet. Oh and recently, because the weather is so beautiful, a lot of laying out under the sun. I might be addicted to it. I could be out there, by the pool for like 3 hours. But hey, with all the shirtless guys walking around and playing water polo, who am I to complain?!
Continuing on with my meme!
Day 03 — Your favorite television program
Hello Wisconsinnnn!
Did this come as a shock to some of you? haha. I know, I know. You might be thinking what about Grey's Anatomy or Skins or...Lost! Well, I obviously don't follow lost. I'd just be...lost. The formers are great television programs no doubt and I love them but they're not something you can just randomly watch without making it a religion you know.
I love That 70's Show just because the cast is hilarious, the script brilliant and it's in the 70's! All hail bell bottoms and kaleidoscope images (you know what I mean)
Not to mention, Topher Grace, or known as Eric Foreman in the show is super cute. Give me an awkward, insecure boy with raging hormones like him. The loser-ish, clumsy person in him just makes him that much more attractive.
Yes, I do have issues.
Looking forward to another great week ahead.
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It's been a rough 22 months for me.
I don't know how it's been for you but for me, I've felt as if I've lost so many parts of my life and myself to you that I'm quite unsure how to start all over again.
I'm saving myself all the cliches and self-pity or hatred against this time but my need to express cannot be stifled. I don't bottle but I channel and this is the only way I know how to do it. So no, you don't get to say I'm a person lacking attention or wanting sympathy because I write, and I write for myself.
I wasn't quite sure what to expect when I left. I just knew I had to go away. But learning it the hard way, running away doesn't mean I get to run away from you. I still find myself sinking into thoughts of you and crying in the middle of the night, fighting the need to...need you.
Fighting for you was like fighting against cancer. It drained all my energy and soul. I didn't know where I had gone to. All I could think of on a daily basis was reasons and excuses and purposes to make sure I was not completely forgotten by you. I put you before myself and ultimately, it took a toll on me.
We're about a month and a half away to sharing 2 years. I still wish we could have made it further and stronger but I'm burned out and I'm done fighting. I'm throwing in the towel and giving into this disease.
I don't know if you will come across this passage one day but if you do, I'd just want to thank you for all struggle you've put me through. I am not bitter, hardly nor am I angry.
Perhaps, I was just hanging on for all the wrong reasons. I don't doubt that you had a better side in you because I've seen it and I guess through all the flaws, I still saw that good. And my love encompassed all of you. Entirely.
July 2008 - April 2010.
Thanks for the memories.