I know there is nothing good about what I am about to say. My actions, intentions, for the past few days have been heinous. Ah that might be a word too strong to use. Perhaps just...inappropriate.
I have never wanted something so badly in my life. Below the jokes and sarcasms and even the minor disapproval from myself, I was actually dead serious.
But now, I am gone and you have slipped right through my fingers. I was so close. So close that I was sure I could describe with more intimacy the moments we could have shared. I am sure I could have written about the textures, grooves and lines that run along. I know I could have felt that shiver or spasm of excitement.
If only.
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Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
I shall be more personal with my photo memes from now on. So since it's all dealing with pictures, I've decided to post personal ones.
Big bright smiles everyone!
This picture was taken at my first house party. The parents were gone for Christmas and I did not want to waste an empty house. Honestly, that would also be my last house party. Too much cleaning up to do haha.
We played lots of card games and a ridiculous game of charades. It lasted all the way to the am and I remembered how we took a spontaneous road trip to another town the next morning without getting any sleep.
This picture makes me happy for so many reasons. For one, it reminds me of the all the people I have grown to know and love in my life. Some, I've known forever while others, just for a year or two. But my love, all the same.
We all look so happy in the picture, it's amazing. Maybe it was the alcohol that was in us by that time but it made for a genuinely happy picture.
I can only pray so hard that I find more people like these when I move away. I cannot believe I am leaving behind those smiles and personalities. Obviously, they are irreplaceable but I wouldn't mind having second best for now.