Existential crisis for me again.
I have all this big plans lined in my head. I've always been so sure of what I wanted and where I wanted to go and I still am.
The only thing that's worrying is whether I'll be able to do it.
Maybe I'll just end up a failure. With big dreams but no means.
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You don't love me as much as you love the life you have right now. I'll always come in second place but I think I'm okay with that for now. I'll give you time and I'll give you space. Space; you've always wanted that and I'm okay with it.
Watching you struggle to form words, watching you give me half awkward smiles because you can't pick the right way to tell me how you feel. Just watching you.
I was so glad to hear that you've missed me. And I'm glad you're willing to take it one more step further, albeit it being a tiny step. We're young and there's so much more out there for the both us, the last thing I wanna be doing is tying you down.
No, I guess you deserve your freedom and like I told you last night, I'm gonna be around.
I'll take heart and have faith because you give me reason to.
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I don't know how to be happy and I'm afraid to fall in love.