Just another Saturday night :)
I don't exactly know how to condense my life into words right now.
Some day, I've been feeling really right on track, and there are some days where I feel no control over the things in my life at all.
It's been somewhat bipolar really.
However, we have been having some great weather lately, which is good because I'm somewhat tired of wearing boots and socks everyday. I need that comfortable feeling of having flip flops again!
As far as school goes, I'm kinda ready to get out. I'm a little ready to go home and be pampered once again. Just kinda. I'm afraid I won't like being...not as independent as I am right now. Or not as free I guess?
Some day, I've been feeling really right on track, and there are some days where I feel no control over the things in my life at all.
It's been somewhat bipolar really.
However, we have been having some great weather lately, which is good because I'm somewhat tired of wearing boots and socks everyday. I need that comfortable feeling of having flip flops again!
As far as school goes, I'm kinda ready to get out. I'm a little ready to go home and be pampered once again. Just kinda. I'm afraid I won't like being...not as independent as I am right now. Or not as free I guess?
Anyhow, aside from applications to the J-school, I have been steadily writing for the school newspaper. It is harder than I'd imagined. With me being involved in the Greek system now, plus work and school, writing has just somewhat taken a back spot for me. It is sad but I'm working on getting my priorities set again!
As for love, what is love?
I'm sure you've read snippets about it here every now and then, so I guess I'll just come clean about it. This place is after all my personal venting outlet, only very public in different ways, but oh well.
I met Brian early last semester through my roommate because they were from the same high school. As usual, we all start out as Facebook friends and then he asked me out one night to watch a movie with him in his apartment. I was very apprehensive. After just recently moving out here and escaping the insanity of a relationship I had back home, trusting another person felt like the hardest thing to do at that point.
Anyway, after much reassurance from some people, I agreed to give it a shot and I guess things were just never the same after that.
I don't think things between Brian and I can ever be simple. For one, I feel like there's always gonna be that connection between us, no matter how much we try to ignore it. I didn't exactly know how to deal with it initially, which led countless nights of insecurities and wet pillows. Obviously, a lot of fights between us because we could never see eye to eye, as far as how our relationship would go. Those were always so intense.
Well it's been close to half a year now and I still have him in my life. Granted, not the way I had envisioned our relationship to be but I'm trying to draw a compromise between the both of us I guess. In different ways, it's helped me grow and understand myself better. I've just learned to keep an open mind about people and just accept the fact that everyone's different. It's just finding your cup of tea.
Brian and I never got into a relationship together, if that's what you're wondering. It wasn't something he wanted in his life right now and I respected that. Though watching him dance with another girl last night did kind of hurt but there wasn't anything I could do about it really.
As for love, what is love?
I'm sure you've read snippets about it here every now and then, so I guess I'll just come clean about it. This place is after all my personal venting outlet, only very public in different ways, but oh well.
I met Brian early last semester through my roommate because they were from the same high school. As usual, we all start out as Facebook friends and then he asked me out one night to watch a movie with him in his apartment. I was very apprehensive. After just recently moving out here and escaping the insanity of a relationship I had back home, trusting another person felt like the hardest thing to do at that point.
Anyway, after much reassurance from some people, I agreed to give it a shot and I guess things were just never the same after that.
I don't think things between Brian and I can ever be simple. For one, I feel like there's always gonna be that connection between us, no matter how much we try to ignore it. I didn't exactly know how to deal with it initially, which led countless nights of insecurities and wet pillows. Obviously, a lot of fights between us because we could never see eye to eye, as far as how our relationship would go. Those were always so intense.
Well it's been close to half a year now and I still have him in my life. Granted, not the way I had envisioned our relationship to be but I'm trying to draw a compromise between the both of us I guess. In different ways, it's helped me grow and understand myself better. I've just learned to keep an open mind about people and just accept the fact that everyone's different. It's just finding your cup of tea.
Brian and I never got into a relationship together, if that's what you're wondering. It wasn't something he wanted in his life right now and I respected that. Though watching him dance with another girl last night did kind of hurt but there wasn't anything I could do about it really.
I guess sometimes you just have to come to terms with the facts in life and move forward from it. I think there will be that one person who will eventually fit the mold and it will work out.
I'm just apathetic and in this situation, maybe that's a good thing.
To whoever reading this right now, I hope your days are filled with the little beautiful things in life, like catching sunlight in your eyes and the smile that creeps on your face when that one good song comes on on your iPod.
I'm still trying to make the best out of my days.
I'm just apathetic and in this situation, maybe that's a good thing.
To whoever reading this right now, I hope your days are filled with the little beautiful things in life, like catching sunlight in your eyes and the smile that creeps on your face when that one good song comes on on your iPod.
I'm still trying to make the best out of my days.