Music: Over You - Daughtry
It's a challenge to wake up, rub your eyes and sluggishly drag your body to the world.
It's so easy to say the right things, what about actually doing them?
Mistakes can be expensive. Even the most genuine and sincere ones, they can be so expensive. I've never felt more responsible and alone in the world than the way I feel now.
You know how people talk about leaving to a foreign with nothing but a couple of quarters in their pocket? Well, I feel the same way. Only much poorer and not at all about to chart history the way some of the people in success stories do.
Deep down inside, I don't want to grow up. Being privileged to have freedom comes with such a heavy price. Having independence does not mean liberation.
Maybe these are lessons worth taking in and learning. Maybe, this will toughen my shell and a couple of years down the road, it will be some source of inspiration for me.
But for now, everything around me feels like such a challenge. Sleeping in the arms of just another mass of body does not cure that cold aching feeling of loneliness.
Loneliness. It knows me by name.
