It's fake.
I'd give anything to not feel this way.
Why can't things be simple? Dinner, movie and my snuggle buddy back with me. I'd do anything to have that right now.
I've been trying pretty hard to stay away from these emotional, self-centered posts but when I come home late in the night, that's the only thing I'm consumed by. A multitude of worries, doubts and insecurities that cloud my mind.
I'm tired because it gets so tiring after a while.
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I've been thinking a lot about you and I and how weird it would be if we'd altered our relationship. It's really easy for me to feel protective and jealous over you and that puzzles me. But then again, it could just mean that I really care about you as a friend.
Sometimes I really look forward to seeing you or even just talking to you.
I'm confused.
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Hi, I just wanted to say that I miss you and our daily mini adventures in Boulder. Whether it's a trip up to the Hill to get lunch and a haircut or a walk to your apartment for some down time.
I wonder if things will change next semester. I really miss what we had and all the shenanigans we would pull off on a weekly basis. I miss our Sunday routines that consisted of huge portions of Pho and expensive trips to the grocery store. I really liked hanging out with you, watching baseball and soaking in the good weather.
Reminiscing doesn't help one bit, does it? I end up missing you even more by the end of it.
1 month til I get to see you. We're so close that it's almost far.