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I don't remember the last time I caught a whiff of your aftershave. I don't even remember the way my hands used to run along your back. I guess distance does that, doesn't it? It severs that personal touch.
I wonder if love alone is enough to get us through. I know I love you and I can be patient and forgiving because everybody has flaws. My greatest one is that I am too selfless. I think about my own self last because everybody I love and care about comes first.
But I have to keep reminding myself that you are not me. That is why you can walk away and I can't.
I have long accepted the fact that I will never have what I'm looking for. If all this splendor and grandness disappears within a blink of an eye, I will not be upset.
To tell you the truth, I'm not used to the idea of being happy. It's so much easier to expect the worst out of someone and set your standards low so disappointment doesn't crush you at the end of the day. I know the expectations you have for me and I just don't want you to get disappointed. More than that, I don't wanna feel like I've let anyone down with my incompetency.
If you think you deserve better, you probably do. Some days, I'm tired of trying to prove myself to you.
Sometimes I wonder if you really do "love" me.
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Just remember that you have your entire life ahead of you and that you will make it matter at some point. Don't get torn up over someone who might not stay forever.
