Music: The One That Got Away - Katy Perry
It's like I've always said; moments like these hit me when I least expect it and today, in the midst of sitting under a beautifully shaded bench, with warm summer breezes stroking my face, I feel bluer than the sky above me.
I hate feeling all melancholic. I know it makes me that much more eloquent but only when talking about sad things.
Maybe it's the subtle insecurities that haunt me when I sleep and stays at the back of my mind when I go through the motions of the day. Most of the time, I'm fairly good at keeping them there but today, they're right here, dictating the next words to this blog post.
It's funny. I've been doing really well at school the past 2 weeks. I guess the pressure of summer school just made me step my game up and so far, I'm one of the high achievers in class. But why doesn't that seem enough right now?
I have this deep ingrained fear that very soon I will lose everything I have and love and oh, how much it will crush me this time, I don't know.
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Last Friday I stepped into a friend's apartment for our regular weekend excursions.
I met a guy and the first things he said to me was, "You look really familiar, like I know you from somewhere."
Honest opinion? I thought that was one of the worst pick up lines ever. But we continued talking and it turns out, he's noticed me walking by the Chemistry building everyday at 11am to my class, and today, point proven because he walked right by me again and smiled.
I just never noticed him and I can't help but wonder, how many other people do I just not notice in my life because I've just grown to being so self-absorbed.
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In another life, I would be your girl.
We'd keep bullet promises; be us against the world.
In another life, I would make you stay.
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away.
