Music: Remind Me - Brad Paisley and Carrie Underwood
You know how you go through the motions of life and every once in a while you'd meet a person or live an event that made you wish you knew how to freeze time, even for one second.
I don't think I'll forget the anticipation coursing through my veins the day I was supposed to see you again. I was a mixture of excitement, nervousness and fear. I wondered how it would play out, would you hold me so tight you'd never want to let go? Would you kiss me so deep I would feel light headed from it?
I walked down the hall that seemed to go on forever and I caught a glimpse of you standing in front of the door. It felt like my heart was about to leap out of my throat. There was the boy who had been so far away from me for the past 3 months but was now merely steps away.
We spent a day together that felt like a dream. It was like the world melted away and there was just me and you. The past didn't matter, the future didn't exist and the present was golden. Your weight next to me felt like second nature and all these questions that we have now could never have existed.
But right now, I'm sitting alone, refusing any company and wishing I would disappear because I don't know how to throw all that away. Do I burn the pictures we have together? Do I find someone else to replace your laugh and the way you breathe? What do I do? Tell me.
What do I do with this ache that I thought I would never feel again? What do I do with the stupid tears that stream uncontrollably? Do I drink bottles of alcohol and pretend we never happened? Do I sleep with strangers because I miss having you next to me when I wake up in the morning?
I don't know how to replace you. I don't know how to let you go yet. And the worse part is I don't know how to make you love me like I love you now.
