It's time for some mindless ramblings in the midst of studying for my first midterm of the year.
1. I just want the simplest notion of falling in love. Yes, I want that disgustingly warm feeling inside of me. I want to blush when I look at him. I want to ramble and brag about him to everyone. I want that innocence back. I want to be in love.
2. In so many ways, I feel like our lives have both diverged and converged at the same time. Forget holding on to the nights where it was just me and him. My nights are now shared with...myself and him with, well fuck, god knows.
3. How do you hate someone?
4. Hi, Adelina called. She wants her heart back now. Yeah? Please?
5. Miserable at best.
6. If you see this, will you please take me on a hike and then to dinner and just say goodnight at the door. Let's leave it simple and not wake up, hungover, with pounding questions of what's going to happen next. Text me in 3 days and ask me out again. Play by the rules and maybe, just maybe, things will fall into place this time?
7. Got asked out 3 times this week but I can't seem to pull myself to just do it.
8. Remember the times you were so nervous and excited about your Powell trip. Well, I remember that sparkle in your eyes and confidence you had. I was mighty proud. Where am I in the equation now?
9. I don't even know which corner of the Earth I can go to anymore.
10. So...did I make it that easy for you to walk right out of my life? Was I that easily dispensable?