Music: Knocks You Down - Keri Hilson
The truth of the matter is, YOU messed up.
I lost count of the times you disappointed me, disrespected me and directly insulted me. I've always thought to love someone is to sacrifice a part of your life for them; partially true. The only problem with us was that I was the only one doing all the sacrificing.
I refused to believe that I was in an abusive relationship. I've always denied everyone else around me, telling them they don't know you like I do. I didn't realize that I didn't know you either.
It took me 2 years of miserable confusion and millions of heartache to finally come to the realization that this isn't right. I've had so much faith in you and every time you'd come around, I thought I could finally have the love they were all talking about. The kind that comes naturally, that leaves you feeling fearless and the one would last.
It never did. It's dawning on me now the times you were so cold and heartless towards me, and still, I put up with all of it. The times you stood me up. The times you lied. The times I needed you there more than anything else in the world but you decided your friend was of much more importance. The times you spat insults at me. The time you blackmailed me. And all the times you fucking tore my heart apart like it was worth nothing.
Well, as of today, there's this person who wants to know my favorite color. He wants to talk to me about football. He wants to do homework with me. He's not afraid to tell me how he really feels, even if it's not the best of news, it's still the truth. How am I supposed to give him up for someone like you?
You never had that courage. You never had the bravery to take a chance on us. That was all I needed-- your strength and conviction in us.
Someone else will settle for your mediocrity, but as of today, the truth of the matter is, that person isn't me.
