Music: You and I - Ingrid Michaelson
Hi.
I am sad, anxious, worried, feeling under the weather, under-confident, immensely paranoid, partially suicidal and is thinking about doing some very self-destructive things to distract me right now.
Please don't try and stop me.
Regards.
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If I had the power to have you here with me right now, you would be.
You would be here and I wouldn't have to go through this painful separation anxiety. I don't know how you're fairing without me. Does it bug you just as much or do you just go through the hours of the days, barely thinking about it?
I wake up every day and wished I had just slept through a week instead of just one night so I would be that much closer to seeing you again. But it doesn't work that way, huh?
I've never understood how 2 people can spend all the time that they had together. I've always thought it would be extremely suffocating and tiresomely stifling. Then I remembered the month that we had together and how I could only remember you from all of it. I miss all that company and how none of it wasn't forced at all.
I can't help but fear that we're never gonna get it right. That this is the beginning of the end and that we won't have what we used to.
Nothing lasts forever, not even you.
