Music: Your Biggest Mistake - Ellie Goulding
I hate sitting alone in my room with no access to the outside world at all.
It is depressing and I hate being alone. If you knew me at all, I'm way too much of a people person to be sitting alone and miserable.
This fucking sucks.
My room resembles the aftermath of Irene and I am so close to tears because I feel like my life is in a mess right now. I need structure and consistency and I have none of that right now. Nothing at all. Nothing close to it.
I'm always trying to be a hero. Always trying to inspire, to warrant change and to make an impact in someone, somewhere. I'm always trying to be that breath of fresh air for someone that I end up stifled.
I just want to drink and sleep when the sun rises. Read in hammock and name wild animals that come by and say hello.
What we have here is a dreamer. Someone completely out of touch with reality. When she jumped, she probably thought she could fly.
