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I don't really remember where September went.
From trying to make the best out of my college career to nursing my freshly wounded heart back to working condition, I feel like I've lost the race against life.
Life.
I need to take a huge breath every time I even think of that word.
September was a fuzzy blend of drunken days and nights, meaningless hook ups and tears. More often than not, tears.
Today Kevin told me that he didn't love me anymore.
It made me wonder if he even ever did love me in the first place.
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It's that sinking feeling that hits you without warning, at any given time of the day.
It's the knowledge that it's never ever going back to the little things that I stupidly hold on to.
It's being alone in a crowded room.
It's losing you in its entirety.
It's losing myself.
