Morning faces
Now, I would call that a solid weekend.
Though, I am exhausted and I swear I can't really remember a time when I was sober this entire weekend, but it's all good. Livin' it up and lovin' it all.
I'm just hoping for some normalcy in my life now after the fucking train wreck of a life I've had in the past year. Heck, I could even stretch it back farther than that.
I'm thinking regular simple things like photobooth pictures, ice-cream cones, movie nights and pancake brunches.
I'm still keeping my fingers crossed and not losing faith yet. It'll happen at some point but until then, I'm gonna make every other day count.
EDIT:
Feeling defeated once again.
Every time I feel like I have my footing right, someone comes over and knocks me down. It's disheartening but it happens.
I guess I'll have to accept what I have presently and make it worth.
Rough times are now but there storm clouds will pass right? I just gotta keep telling myself that I can fight my way through this, as I have in the past.
Just keep telling myself that I'll be fine and I will be fine.
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Deep down inside, I think we both had huge reservations about the idea of us.
I knew at some point in my life, I would have had to let you go.
Things are sliding downhill so fast. So many things that have tainted that; our love. I never thought it would turn for the worst in such a short amount of time.
But it has and I can't help but be sad for it. That breaks my heart the most.
I don't know what to do honestly. I don't know what I can do to salvage this or if it's too late and it has all just turned into debris.
I write and write and I don't know why I even try to continue writing cos it boils back down to the same issue. It still feels the same.
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I don't want to love ever again.