Music: Remind Me - Brad Paisley ft. Carrie Underwood
Day 3 and my insides feel numb.
I've exhausted all my tears and all my pleas.
You're just another stranger in the crowd now. I can't believe I have to go through this all over again and the funny thing is, no matter how many time I go through it, the pain doesn't hurt any lesser.
It's like tearing up old scars.
I feel broken and defeated inside. I feel helpless.
You were once the anchor that held down and grounded me into things that were good. Like love and hope; faith and happiness. And now that you're gone, I'm afloat in the vast ocean, turning and tossing with the waves, with no direction.
I am a train wreck. I fake my smiles and drink to mask the pain. It's destructive because I can't remember the last time I actually ate something solid.
My entire week has been reduced to me, living inside my own little bubble, with no sense of the real world at all. I am not this girl at all. I am not one to wallow and be pathetic but this right here, hurts so much that I wake up only to want to crawl back into bed again.
You say that in the short-term this will be hard. But what if I never forget you? What if inside I'll always love you and miss you? I'm banking on time and I'm banking so hard that it will carry me out of this.
My entire week has been reduced to me, living inside my own little bubble, with no sense of the real world at all. I am not this girl at all. I am not one to wallow and be pathetic but this right here, hurts so much that I wake up only to want to crawl back into bed again.
You say that in the short-term this will be hard. But what if I never forget you? What if inside I'll always love you and miss you? I'm banking on time and I'm banking so hard that it will carry me out of this.